possible reason..

i just spoke with my psychologist and i told her how i just wrote a blog entry wondering WHY exactly the mother of a man who NEARLY killed me could say i was "ungrateful". i said to her, "she doesn't know me. she doesn't know what went on in my life to make me "ungrateful". the most she can probably see are the pictures i posted on facebook of me and my family doing things through the years." then my psychologist asked me, "did you know her before the accident?" then i said, "no. she really doesn't have the right to say i'm "ungrateful" when her son ALMOST killed me." then my psychologist came up with an idea that i can't believe i honestly didn't think of myself, "maybe she's saying it because of the settlement?" i'm pretty sure that's the reason why because his nosey ass sister had brought up the settlement before in one of her stupid facebook messages to me a long time ago. YEE-FUCKIN-HAW! i had AT LEAST 10 fuckin years taken from my life and had to RE-LEARN ALL THE FUNCTIONS A NORMAL PERSON CAN DO (WALK, RUN, SHOWER, EAT, TRANSFER MYSELF TO DIFFERENT AREAS, USE THE BATHROOM LIKE AN ADULT- MEANING I DID HAVE TO WEAR DEPENDS AT ONE TIME LIKE A FUCKIN BABY AND BE CHANGED LIKE A DAMN BABY, EVER-Y-THING) JUST BECAUSE SOMEONE DECIDED TO DRINK AND DRIVE. i had to have a BACLOFEN PUMP INSERTED IN MY SPINE just so i could walk (which i got removed before my grandma died), i also had to be tube-fed for a while when i was relearning how to eat so my body could handle it, i also had to have enemas) you ignorant asses are NOT making yourselves look any better. i also had my driver's license taken away from me and i have a hell of a time getting employed since employers discriminate against disabled people.. you can ignorantly say, "PFFT! THEY CAN'T DISCRIMINATE AGAINST HER! IT'S AGAINST THE LAW!" DOES IT SAY "STUPID" ON MY HEAD?! THERE'S NO WAY YOU CAN PROVE AN EMPLOYER DISCRIMINATED AGAINST YOU FOR BEING DISABLED. i've even considered going to my in-person interviews without my cane. i never used to have a cane before i lived here and i think i still got a few interviews (not as many but i still got some). i'm pretty sure that's the reason why jesse stopped using his reverse-walker to get around. it's sad that disabled people get discriminated against for even trying to work but IT DOES HAPPEN. call me "ungrateful" or wtf you want to make yourself feel better about being a shitty ass parent and to impress your daughter-in-law ALL YOU WANT- but it's NOT gonna change the TRUTH. DON'T EVEN FUCKIN START TO TELL ME I'M UNGRATEFUL AFTER ALL THE SHIT I'VE WENT THROUGH (I'M NOT DONE GOING THROUGH SHIT IN LIFE) BECAUSE OF SOME MAN WHO DECIDED IT'D MAKE HIM LOOK COOL TO DRINK AND DRIVE WHILE PUTTING NOT ONLY HIS LIFE AT RISK BUT TWO OTHER PASSENGERS ALSO- ONE NOT MAKING IT). WHEN YOU SHIT ON ME- YOU'RE BASICALLY SHITTING ON THE OTHER MAN WHO DIED IN THE ACCIDENT TOO. check yourself before you wreck yourself. I SHOULD BE GRATEFUL FOR MY TRAUMATIC BRAIN INJURY! *rolls eyes* and i thought MY family was naive. they're nothin compared to tim's family!